To Papa

Dear Papa,

With utmost respect and due love to you.

I am 23 now and a daughter of 23 is quite grownup to get married and manage the responsibilities ably as followed by our clan since ages. You too have many dreams regarding my marriage. I've seen you running doors to doors just to find someone who can live up to your expectations and even mine when it comes to give your daughter to anybody else. Every Sunday I see your eyes peeping out of those thick glasses staring deep into the matrimonial pages of the newspaper. I see those lines of stress on your forehead when somebody rejects me and a tough look when I reject someone. I know your responsibilities.

I remember when you got transferred to a remote area of Bihar when I was too young and so my younger sister. It was a tough time when you safeguarded us in a area full of naxalites. When mummy used to make us sleep singing the song," papa jaldi aa jana". I remember the letter you wrote me titling "pyari gudia".

Time flied. But every time you stood there for me. May it be my first Board exams or any interview or even during my operation when you remain awaken all those five nights when I was in deep pain. First time I rode scooty, first time I traveled alone;every where.

You are the toughest and the strongest person I have seen. Many times you heard bad words because of my mistakes and even more times you got applauded in public when I say that behind my every step you are there.

But today things have changed. I feel I am grown up. At times I feel taking my decisions independently.I know it hurts you when I disagree to your points and argue.

Papa! I may go wrong at times, I may not show my love and attention to you, I may argue you sometimes may be because of the thoughts’ difference among us. You are always right I know and I always follow the path you show me. If sometimes I go against you, its not because I don’t think you are right. Its only because I think that even I am not wrong.

At a point of time if I take a decision without your consent unknown to the fact where it would lead me, I only wish you to stand for me as it could be a first independent decision which may wrong me. But with your blessings nothing can harm.

I am at my learning phase now, it may be a kind of trial and error, I can and I will do many mistakes but with your support I can easily cross all the hurdles. I am learning with your experiences and adore you to the core. No matter where I go in life you will always remain the first and the best man of my life.

The distance of respect and shyness between us may not letting me say these words directly to you, yet these are directly from heart aimed at you. I'll never let you down.If I go wrong;It may be the circumstances that would force me. There I only request you to understand me.

I feel so light after writing this to you.

Papa! I love you and I will always do..

“Happy Father’s Day”

Your daughter